We have purchased a new house.
It is ten miles from the nearest hamlet and 20 miles from where I work in San Luis Obispo.
It is nestled in the Coast Range in what is considered high desert.
There are pastures and oaks. There are deer. Probably a bear or two. Raccoons for sure.
It is on a private well. It uses propane and there is NO cell reception.
It is a perfect place.
He would have loved the isolation. He would have loved the quiet. He would have loved the wildlife.
The other day I took a break from the interior painting. (Fumes, you know!) And I am standing on the back deck looking out at the neighbors pasture.
I had been thinking about how Dan would have loved the place. How much I wished he was there with me.
Then I realized.....
He already was.
It felt like he was everywhere I looked. Every place I touched.
He was in every rock and tree and bush.
This was a place he loved.
I am at ease with that.