It was about this hour. I was watching television. Grey's Anatomy.
And the phone rang. And I didn't want to get up and get it. So I let the caller go to voice mail. Then it rang again. And I grudgingly got up to get it.
All he said was "Something is wrong with my eyes. I can't see right."
Tonight the whole conversation comes back to me.
I feel like I could have done something, said something, thought of something. I know that is not logical and that there is nothing on this earth that I could have done. But I FEEL differently.
I have gone through depression, bargaining, anger but I can't get to acceptance.
I want the phone to ring. I want it to be him. I want to take it immediately and happily because I know it is him. I want to sing to him. I want him to go to Melodie's graduation from law school. I want to see his face again. I want to hear his voice.